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The Open Heart and Open Mind of Taliesin

by True_Ember
February 5th 2022
01:17:16
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What's up you guys it's true ember and today I have another episode, This Episode I have the Amazing Taliesin (@Talie_Bear) And we talk about our look on theater and the backstory of Taliesin while... More

what's going guys, it's remember and welcome back to the, let's just vibe podcast, thank you guys so much for coming, coming back and tuning in for another episode and today we have another very special guest, we have tally everybody, how are you doing today? I'm doing really well actually first question, I just gotta get off the bat is how you liking the, how you liking the setup the first time in the podcast. Honestly, I really like the bath and body works candle in the right place because that's wonderful sense to kind of girl man, I, I love just having the smell, I don't have any right now but man, the smell it just gives, it does, this is one place in Lodi like kind of like just off of like the like main downtown street it's called like, I don't, I don't even know, it's like this apothecary type place and they have like such good incense for like super cheap, I highly recommend, I didn't need to check that out, check that out. Um, so um, so yeah, let's just get right into it. So um, sadly uh sadly tally was not in Cyrano, like this last like few episodes but she all, she is in and then there were none, which is the new up and coming production that delta is producing, what character do you play in and then there were none and how is that going so far for you?

I am like so happy, I mean like I just, I look forward to going into the theater, like every single day that's the highlight of my day. Like whenever I'm in a show? I am probably the happiest ever. So, I mean like I love the cast and like, even though, you know, as you'll find out here is not like the greatest, like I still love her though and like character, it is like, I don't know, I think it was lady gaga that said like, you know, I don't trust her, I don't love her but I had to love her to play her. I think that's kind of where I am right now, but honestly I'm having such a good time. It is a little bit exhausting as some people have seen me nap on the couch is um just because like, I don't know, I mean long hours, it's late. I really like, but the thing is like, I love staying busy, like staying business, like my favorite thing ever, like I am happiest when I am like constantly doing things very much in my element, but that also comes with like, okay, tell you need to like breathe and go and sit down and like feel that, you know, take a nap or something.

I feel that no, I feel that being the most productive all the time. I always feel the best. Um how, what's it called? But no, yeah, you're saying the production is really, really nice, what's it called? The one thing that's sucking so much about is codes taking everyone out. Yeah, it took me out for a little bit. Yeah. How long were you gone for? Just a week? Like it was like there and gone because I um I worked as a production assistant at a theater. Like my mom keeps saying like, oh my God, tally, what if you got it from somebody that was there, what if you got it from when you were like going out someplace? Like I don't know where I got it from, but it was seriously only a week but it was like really really bad for like four days. It's just especially the first two, it was like I couldn't even get up, like I literally could not sit up and I was just like chugging a bunch of herbal tea and then like it was there and gone so fast but I was still like testing positive but then like, you know, seven days later I'm good to go back to school and now I'm feeling perfectly fine. Okay. That's awesome to hear because you know, other people are telling me that like you know, as soon as one comes back and comes back, another one leaves because of Covid, like how many people are gone because of Covid right now.

Parker is gone right now. Um And then Israel was gone because his roommate had it but he doesn't so he's back. That's awesome. Yeah and then Frankie was gone for a little bit because he had it but Frankie's back now. That's awesome right now. We're just missing Parkour Parkour. You guys are going back and forth, and I'm like, that was the next one is going to be Exactly. And and I was just telling them to, I was like, I'm just happy that it's like, if you were to happen is happening now, right then literally like, opening night or so, you know, I think I had, like, a panic attack. I'd go into cardiac arrest. Like, my only question is what would have happened? Like, I have no idea. Yeah, I remember I was an understudy for uh for the theater that I work at and like, the kid got sick and I was like, well, I guess I'm going on, so like, but we don't really have understudies, you know? Yeah, we don't have backups. Yeah. So like, I honestly don't know what we would do. And that's the scary thing. Yeah, that's that's a scary thing to think about. Um Okay, so let's just dive into your history.

How long have you been in the acting industry for? Well, okay, I don't know if I've called like, the industry yet. We're going to get there, but I've been acting since I was about six years old, I was always like, doing some sort of artsy type thing. Like, like all my life. Like, literally I would put on a movie that had like, music in it, and I would like dance around my living room, or I would like, you know, I would memorize lines from the movie. So I could like play out the scenes throughout my house and of course I was always the main character and didn't matter if I was like Jack Sparrow or if I was like, like the corpse bride in corpse bride, like that didn't matter to me. I was just like, I need to be on the stage. It seems like little every actors like that's how they started. I don't know, like I would imagine you just take scenes just as a kid and then react them all the time seriously all the time. Like I was also, I was also the kid that would like organize the christmas pageants every single christmas. Like I was the writer, director, producer, actors. Like I wanted to do everything for those little christmas pageants and I was like eight years old and like I'm the oldest cousin that's still in California.

So like I would organize all my other cousins like make the programs and it's like, okay now we're going to do jingle bells and then we would like all line up and stuff and then I would, I would also be like the emcee for the show to, and like all our parents were like, you know, I don't know, a little wine drunk or something like eating sandwiches on christmas eve, just watching you do your thing, Like that's the best thing though. That's awesome. That's awesome. Um real quick before we go into the, um, have you ever, so when, when I say theater history, um, you know, you've been like helping out productions and you've been acting obviously, um, have you just been trying to stay in the, in the theaters and stage or you're also trying to dive into like the film industry? I mean honestly I would really like to do like film and tv like, I mean, but then again, like there's nothing like live theater, there really isn't. That's why that's why we do it. Like there's a certain energy about it that like you really can't replicate with anything else because like, you know when you make a movie and you watch the movie, it's like, you know, you're experiencing those reactions by yourself on your couch or in a movie theater or whatever.

But like when you're like on a stage and you have that like exchange of energy between the audience and yourself and everyone else that's in that theater, there's like literally nothing else like that. And there's just like a kind of magic that happens. But like, I mean then I think like okay tally like movies are pretty great. Like you want to do that right there. No, definitely they're great and that's, that's, that's the main thing I'm trying to go for is the film because you know, don't worry wrong. You're right. Theater, live theater. There's nothing like it, you know what I mean? It's all in front of you, it's all live, but in film, people can rewatch it all your time and honestly I feel like the most can come out of filming, you know? Um and then, but you know compared to theater and I mean they're both, I would obviously do both, but mainly films the way to go in my opinion. But you know, theaters uh oh that's okay. Okay, comedy. I love to because that's when you're laughing the most and that's, you know, you can enjoy the most dramatic I enjoy more because that's in my opinion, dramatic is like where the acting most comes out, you know, any dramatic scene, it really shows, you know, the most an actor can do.

And that's why I prefer it over comedy if I may counter that. But like I feel like people just view comedy as like something that just you laugh at and something that people find funny. Like if you're just going to watch like Home Alone or something like that, that's something that you find funny if you're gonna watch anchorman, like yeah, that's funny. But like I feel like people often disregard the amount of emotion that can be put into like a comedy film. Like you're actually like, I mean we laugh at our own pain, don't we? Like that's what's funny and like everyone that's doing a comedy movie, they're like that's what they also have to do. It's not just like making people laugh or something like that. But then again, I like if I'm performing, I would rather do something dramatic. Like from like my senior year, my final performance I did in my advanced drama class was comedic and I regret it so much, like so much. I wish so badly. I did something dramatic. Well, I mean, uh, what's it called? Hopefully, hopefully there's a, there's another chance you could redeem yourself in that, but okay.

I mean you're right and then there's always also different aspects on how to take acting. Obviously, you know, you're right, Comedy does take a little bit, it does take a little bit of an actor, you know, because you got to make them laugh and then also you gotta laugh like you were saying laugh through the pain, you know? Exactly. Exactly. So that, that doesn't make sense. But me personally, I have more fun acting out a drama scene than a comedic scene. Like, I mean, I just, I love utilizing every aspect of an emotion in a scene that I'm doing. Like that's just something that I love to do so much. It's just, it's very fun for me to like experience what someone else is feeling like through myself, but like not through my, like, I mean that's like, well now we're just getting into me trying badly to explain what acting is, but like, you know, I just, I love when I can like feel like super super angry or super super sad. But then like, also if I'm playing something like a little more solemn and like not as extreme or like not as much heightened emotion.

Like that's also something that's really special that I really like to do. Yeah, wow. Okay. Okay. You know what's really cool about about you specifically is that everybody I interviewed, they usually give me like a short answer, like, like 12 things, right? And then you're going to fall into explaining and I'm like, I'm like, this is what I needed. I love explaining that this is great overachiever I see. That's awesome. That's awesome. I'm gonna need you more on this podcast, but let's see what else we got. Um, so yeah, so, so you can't remember exactly everything you did, but can you list like the, like at least in your opinion, the best of your performance? Oh, the best. Okay, well there's a difference between like the best and my favorites. So, okay, let's do your favorite, my favorite's probably. Um, so I was in literally every single school play and musical I was allowed to do, like, I would audition, be crazy nervous, see the cast list and then that would be my life for three months and then like, I would do it all over again and that was the best thing ever.

But I was also like, it's like a student type thing. I like this, like local theater in stockton And then I did that from the time I was six until I was I think 15 or 16. And the I've done like 20 shows there, something like that. Um and then okay, well now I'm getting off topic, but okay, favorites. Um Well I already talked to you a little bit before. That's about the haunting of Hill house that I did. Um I auditioned for. Uh oh goodness, what was her name at the leading female role for that? Her name escapes me at the moment. But like I auditioned for her and my director, like he only had me read for her. So I was like super excited and everything. And I was like, oh my God, what if it happens? But I was like totally don't get your hopes up. And then like halfway through the call back, he was like, okay, the following people can go and he called my name and I was like, nope, that's it, it's done, it's over. I know I'm not gonna get it and you know what? I didn't get it. And like, yeah, I cried my eyes out for like a good 20 minutes, but then Taylor Swift released album that night.

And so I was like, okay, well maybe it's ok, Like maybe it's not so bad. But then I got called into uh to my director's room the next day and he was like, hey listen, um I love this. And I was planning on double casting it and I was wanting you for this role but then I decided not to double cast like at the last minute so I was like okay cool thank you, but why are you telling me this? And he said well that's because I want you to do tech and I said okay um first thing I have done tech one time in my entire life. I didn't sound because I did a production of Robin Hood like the year two before that and you know I I really liked it, I learned sound pretty well and then he said okay I want you to to sound it's wonderful, it's great. And then I worked with Haley who was the stage manager for and then there were none and she was my stage manager for Hill House too. And so that that entire experience for me was like it was just so so wonderful. Like I would have a seven hour school day and then I would have like practices for various like clubs and activities whatever I was in.

And then I would go straight to rehearsal and I would be there until like eight p.m. So it would be like a 12 hour day at school but like I thrive you enjoy it though. It was so wonderful. Like I was just sitting up there in the tech booth learning everything I could and like I really like that but that's one it's not number one because obviously I can't pick a favorite. But then, I mean I kind of already feel like, and then there were none is in my favorite. Do you have do you have the lead role or I mean, or at least a character that like last until the end? I am Yeah, I mean yes, but like, I mean there's war grave to obviously, but but yeah, so I would, I would say this is like definitely up there in my favorites and it's only been three weeks and yeah, no, because because I was going through the, what was it? I was remember going through the casting list of than, and then there were none and I thought that john Michael got like the lead role because you know, he's at the top and everything. But then they were telling me that was, it was just an ensemble. Like there wasn't, it wasn't no specific order.

Yeah, it's kind of just like, you know, just listed all out I guess. I don't know how they show solicit out. But yeah. Oh my gosh, where was I also trying to thought you said you were really enjoying it and Yeah. Anyways, Oh yeah, and then there was a show I was also in that I never got to perform, which really sucked because it was, it was so great. My whole cast was wonderful and my friend was the director of it and she cast me in her show and I was like, oh my God, life is kind of crazy, this is so good. And it was called Remember Me Always. But um we were supposed to perform at like april 2020 of course the world shut down, you know, March 13th of 2020. And so we never got to. But um that was something that was really wonderful. And then uh oh my gosh, I did mary Poppins too, I did and I played you know, their housekeeper person, like you know, tends to the Children and whatnot. I was her and that was a really fun show but like the choreography for step in time. I was like, I was struggling like, you know, but I got it at the very end.

We all did because you know, we're trying to be professional. So you know, we did do that and it was just I had just had the best time in that show. Like I had I made so many friends in that I had more friends that had like come back to do the show. Like I just I was so happy and besides that, like I love mary Poppins, like that's such a good movie. Like it definitely like brings back some childhood stuff for me because like, you know, who doesn't want to like skip around like bird or like you know, singing feed the birds and you know, toss some imaginary breadcrumbs at the wall, you know, wow, I mean, what is it? I'm just trying to speak because like you're taking over. But then again, no, no, it's, it's your episode. I just kind of forgot that it was your episodes. I'm like, no, this is all her. She, you know, she explained everything. She tells everything the way she wants to tell you. Um, what, what school did you did you go to or Lincoln high? Okay. So many people came from there. I realized that because like, because I know Samina went through there. I know who, who, who, who just came from there.

It wasn't Cody. Mark what? Yeah, I know Alvaro was there, um, Frankie was there. I do not remember. I don't know. But there was a good amount of people that came from there. Um, yeah, I know, you know, you know, a school named Tokay Tokay High school? Yeah. Um, their theater production did nothing. Yeah. So, um, they had a class for it and I got on stage a few times. The only, like, the only real time I really remember is we had to, we had to basically make our own monologue and the performing in front of people. That's really it that and then, uh, we have, every year we have this, uh, we have the freshman sit down for a presentation and it was about like sexual harassment and racism and all that, like what to do and what not to do. And I performed those. I was always like the bad guy, so which is it's fun because obviously you know, you like, like they told what they told me to do was like um going next to someone and like sniff their hair and you can never do that, you know?

So you know, I got to live that a little bit and I was like okay, I mean you know this is cool and all, but I hope she's alright with it and then we talked afterwards and like yeah, yeah, so you know, but you know the more the more acting, the more I was like wow, like okay you have more ability, but it was it was a little weird but other than that nothing other than cyrano, Cyrano was like my first production. So you know, and it's so far my only but hopefully when everybody comes around we'll be in that one as well. Mhm, roughly. Okay, so you you said you did uh your favorite was they don't have a favorite. Okay, okay, so you're so far you're enjoying the number nine? Yes. What much? What has been your biggest struggle within the number nine? Okay, so I can list a couple um number one, my friends and this will tell you that this is very much true because I feel like I'm always complaining about it and I most certainly get annoying sometimes because I probably definitely do get annoying. Um but oh my God walking around for four hours and heels that do not fit me right?

It is a struggle, like I stuffed the toes with a pair of socks each like and by the end of them like the socks are all squished, my feet hurt, I'm like I can barely stand up, I'm like tripping over myself, but like when I'm on stage and like when we're rehearsing everything, I got to like sit up straight, I gotta walk proper, but the second that I got off that stage it's like oh my God, I am like limping, I am, it hurts like I want to wear my converse again, like that's all I want. But um yeah, besides that honestly um I really like doing the accents but I wouldn't say it's like a massive struggle, like it's definitely something that like I'm getting used to, but I wouldn't say that it is like like the most difficult thing right now, like honestly posture and like staying in like in character, like like physically that's like kind of a struggle for me because obviously I want to I want to slouch and like you know I want to actually I want to cross my legs but no, absolutely not. A lady always crosses her ankles and a lady puts her shoulder step back and like you know she has her head up and like all that sort of stuff but like you know, I don't I don't feel like that, but that's the point of acting, right?

You're not you so you know, you gotta get used to that. Um But yeah, there's, there's that too. And I mean going into it, like my first rehearsal back, I was like so stressed out. I mean like I was like shaking walking in there cause I was like, oh my God, what if I don't make any friends? What if nobody likes me? What if like, they like reject me because I don't know them? What if like, you know, because I wasn't cyrano, like they like, you know, are not going to talk to me. And I was like, I had so much stress. Like I don't know what to do. But then like literally an hour into it. I was like, oh, everything's good. Like, you know, I just feel like I get so stressed when I walk into a first rehearsal or first audition or callback. Like, especially like the first audition and first rehearsal, Like I just, every emotion I have that is negative. It's like piled into my brain and I'm like, oh my God, I'm not talented. I'm not good enough and I'm like, talent, you were already cast like that. There's like nothing you can do right now. Like you need to breathe. Yeah. So I mean that was a struggle at first, but again, only for like, you know, an hour or two.

And then I was like, all good. Did you know some of the people that were, that were never done before. I knew chris l uh huh And then I've known john Michael, I call him Michael. But I've known Michael since I was like 11. Yeah. But Michael and I, we go way back like way back. Like I've known him forever and him and I were always doing the school musicals together. Like we would always like, you know, be on stage and everything like, you know, he's a great friend and everything like it's nice. It's nice to like be on stage with him again. That's awesome. Yeah. Um, yeah, I, I can't, I can't wait to be on everybody because you know, half the people already knew the other half are like, you know, people who are coming back from the place. So it is going to be exciting. Um, And then, yeah. And then how many weeks are you, are you in so far? three 4? I think it's week three, 3, 3 going on four, right? Uh, next week. I think it will be four. Yeah, I think so, yeah. Okay. You know, we started on the 18th. Yeah, so we started at 18, so it hasn't even been a month yet. Okay. So okay. Yeah, Yeah. So yeah, you have three weeks so far gone down.

Um, let's see, hmm, this is great because now, whatever question I come up. I know I'm going to have like five minutes to answer. So it's a great thing. I mean you know, don't get me wrong like um what's it called? I just want the best answer and usually you explained it the most which is great. Yeah, let's see, I'm just, you know, it's interesting to see which what's another, that's another good one. Um ask you anything, ask me like even basic stuff like oh okay, so okay, so you don't want to dabble into the theater world anymore? No, I will dive anywhere seriously. Okay um okay, okay. You said you were you were, you said you were six when you like first started acting right? Um Was there anything in, was there any movie tv series that inspired you to act. Is there any family member, Is there any actor that inspired you? I like that question. Um so my friend, let's start with family. Okay, so buckle up, let's let's get into the history.

So, so my grandmother, she did not act but she did paint and she is the most miraculous painter ever. She does art that like I could never do in 1000 years and she also does stained glass windows like and she does like stained glass lampshades, like she's like very a multifaceted person and my grandpa, he is like the exact opposite of that. He is very much like I want to watch my war movies and I want to like you know, sit down in my chair and like I love him so much but like that is very much him and then my mother she got a degree in art and sculpture and so she she was like very much immersed in the art world. Um But that's not what she has ever done for a living like she um she worked in like retail fashion for a little bit um a long time actually. Um And like she worked uh like with makeup and everything and then she went back to school and she became a nail tech and then she did that for a while um And then she worked at ups but she never like did a career in art and then my father he got um a degree in architecture and he does like H.

V. A. C. H. V. A. C. System I think. So he said I don't really know what he does for work but like um H. V. A. C. Systems for like this like homebuilding company type thing and I consider architecture art like I think that like there's art all around us and I think that buildings are like a good example of that. Um But then my little brother max who is like he's like one of my best friends um He you know he he tried to get into theater and art but that wasn't ever his forte really. Um So my family like I had you know my mom my grandmother they were always like pushing the art on me but they never pursued it themselves, it was always sort of like something off to the side for them. Um But like as a kid I wasn't allowed to like watch like tv like actual like live tv until I was like seven but I was allowed to watch movies. So like my mom was always like I'm gonna put on a movie for me, I'm sure he would like stick like a paintbrush in my hand and I would like something anyways um Or like you know I just like paint for a long time. So like I was always very immersed in like artistic endeavors throughout my entire childhood.

So like I mean honestly like a lot of like tim Burton stuff got me into it really because like I always loved like the weird characters like I really as a kid like I was like like into like the weird characters. I was like you know Randall from monster things like that, that was my guy like he was the best like you know he was weird and creepy and everything but and all the other kids were like I'm scared and Randall was like no this is like he's cool, like a better one, he's got ambition, he has drive and like it's super cool and so like you know I would put on like weird tim Burton movies or like Disney movies or something like that. Um And then I would just like learn them and then I would like act them out, and then when I was around six, my mom took me to a show of Pinocchio, I think it was Pinocchio at least, and I sat there and I just remember thinking like, oh my God, like this is it, like this is exactly, and I was like six years old, and I just thought like I want to do that, I want to be up on that stage like, and I want to like wear the glittery makeup and I want to wear the blue dresses and I want to like do this and I want to like make people feel the way that I'm feeling right now.

And so of course I was signed up immediately. Um and so you know then I have done my like 20 shows over at that theater in stockton, and then um let me see, I've done like, I consider like my actual first show at my elementary school, like when I was like nine, I was Wilbur in charlotte's web, and then from there, it was just like every single one because I'm not going to count my first grade production of like Aesop's fables, like I'm not gonna count that because that was not my favorite, that was not good and I was like seven, so like, you know, I'm not going to really count that. Um But yeah, and then it kind of just never stopped for me, like it was all my high school musicals, I would audition for, like, just about every single play that I could and yeah, so I mean, I think I'm over at like, God, I don't even know like 30 something shows now, maybe more, maybe more than that, like, a mixture of plays and musicals and yeah, something along those lines. And then like I don't know, really like movies just got me into it and like, I mean, no one else in my family was acting ever at all.

Um And I was always like, the artsy kid. I was always like, the cousin that like, did a bunch of stuff on stage, like, I can play the violin and the equal alia, I did that in school. Yeah, I was always that kid and like, you know, I would like always be really into like, the dance festivals that we did at school because my school was very much like an art based school, like, so we would always like, do like, you know, we would like learn stuff and then we would like perform it and then like, learn stuff and then perform like, it was, it was kind of like, that constant cycle. So I felt like I was like, always creating something and I never feel like I'm not creating something like when I feel like my lowest and my worst is when I'm like, not doing something. Like, I always need to be like writing like a poem or I need to be painting or I need to be like writing a monologue that like, even if no one ever in the world is going to hear me perform this, I still did, I still like wrote something and like, I feel good about that or like, you know, I like change up the art on my walls or I'll go out and like pressed flowers and I'm also a letter writer and I think, you know, that's art too.

So like, I don't know, I've cast, I would say like, artists kind of just always been in my life and then like, acting is like, just everything to me. So the first place you saw was Pinocchio, is that the one that inspired you? Or um I wouldn't say it was necessarily a show that like inspired me because I would say like a lot of the movies that I watched kind of inspired me, but like, it was more like the people that were in Pinocchio that inspired me. I was like, wow, these are like people that are just like a couple of years older than me. Of course, I thought that because I was like six and I was like, they're not that much older. Yes, they were. Um and so like, you know, I just watched them and I was like, wow, I just, that just seems so real and alive and like, I wish so badly that like, I could make something that was literally just on paper feel alive and so like I guess I would say like that kind of kick started it for me but then also like the people in my life were always like telling me like, okay talent, like I want you to do this like this is something that you're good at.

I really do believe that like this is like gonna happen. So I was, I had like such a good support system with my friends because like all my friends were like really like artsy kids to like, we all had this like a little like huddle in elementary school, like you know, one of us like played the cello, another one like drew all the time and like another one of us like started a band and like, you know, and you know, we were always just like that little like group and you know what, I'm still friends with all of them. So I guess that kind of worked out. That's awesome to hear. Um Yeah, no, I I kind of relate to you on that because like you, I I don't really have anybody in like the filming film, acting, anything like that. Like my big thing has always been uh film, my big thing has always been like recording and uh you know, podcast just came along with it. So you know, I'm glad I have this podcast and I'm glad, you know, I'm a bit of film and act but uh not not unlike you, not me and my family, like exactly support it. You know, like they mean they don't support, it's not that they don't, it's more like, you know, if you think you can do it then go do it, you know, But, but it's never like, you know, you should do this, you're really good at that, you should do this.

It's always just like, if you want to do it, go do it, you know? Um So, you know, I relate to you on that one. Um but nevertheless, I, you know, I feel like I can do something with this, so which is why, you know, we're, we're now in acting classes productions coming up and you know, another reason why I bring you up in here because you know, podcast needs to be another episode of podcast has happened, you know? Um Yeah, that's, that's a, that's awesome. Uh Let's see. Um I'm gonna try to go back to two. I had, I had a question for and then number nine, let's see if I can bring it back up. But in the meantime, um let's see, have you, have you been in any sort of like film? No, I have not, but I want to because obviously that's what I want to do, but like, I've never like been in a um, well it wasn't like a music video once, but not like a professional one. It was like for like, just know it was for like just this like local band and I was like hey come here and I was like okay cool.

And so I just did that so I guess that's kind of my only thing. Um But yeah I've never been like in commercials or like you know done like a short film or anything, I want to write a short film someday like you know obviously who doesn't but like oh yeah yeah but I've never done anything. Yes yes I said it before and I'll say it again, my main my main focus right now is or like my my main like my main main goal right now is to direct and produce like a short film slash movie And also create like a series with including at least 10 episodes. I want to, I don't know exactly what the plot is. I don't know exactly the story, the character is nothing like that but I want to create something like that, like a like a limited series, like a mini series, like over the garden wall type thing or like something. Yes. No. Yeah mini series can happen like like 2030 Minute episodes, you know? Um Again if I knew like if I had a plot in mind I kind of do but uh you know it's gonna be hard to produce, especially like um what I'm not concerned about actors because you know if I ever need a female, I would just be like, hey I need this role, you wanna help me out with it.

You know what I mean? Um That's not what I'm concerned about. It's more just like how I'm going to get everything done and if everything goes well because we got actors but not exactly a crew. You know what I mean? The crew is difficult to come by and I feel like people don't recognize that a lot like literally like a movie is so much more than just what you see on screen. Like you do realize that like all the people behind the camera, right? Like that makes me so upset sometimes that people don't recognize that like, like do you realize like how much effort is put into like editing and sound mixing and lighting and like just building the set. Like people don't recognize that and that makes me like really upset sometimes. Yeah. And big examples that people just leave during the credits. But the credit show a whole team of people that was, that was part of this one film. You know like in the biggest example in No way home. Oh, so many effects were spoilers place. Oh you have not seen it all I'm saying is that the credits? It's just, it's extremely long because it took so long to make the movie Well, I mean marvel movies kind of taught me to like wait to the end to see everything.

So like I guess I kind of just always do that because like, you know, my mom would take me to movies and I was like, you know like 10 or something and we were like, I'm going to watch like the new marvel movie and I would always have to tell her like, no, no, no, we can't leave yet. You know, we got to wait till the end like you got to see what's going to happen like, you know, because you have to Yeah, I know you have especially in every marvel movie. Yeah. Oh, I okay. And I just remember the end of the one question um you you have a you have a job job, what's your what's your job right now? I'm a production assistant over at kudos in Stockton's production assistant and kudos and stuff. Really, wow. I just had Sabina on yesterday and she told me that she did a bunch of plays with them. Yeah. I have actually done a couple of shows with Serena. Yeah, she was telling me about that yesterday. I was like, wow, that's a whole it's a big circle. Yeah. I mean like I know you had kayla onto and like I've known Kayla for like since I was like I don't know like 12 or something like that and like I you know I love them the same as her. She's been acting since she was like 56 and she you know, she wasn't kudos and or part of kudos and uh you know she's doing things now right now she's just focusing on school as she should, you know, education is important.

Exactly. I just hope she doesn't overwhelm herself with me too. I mean like Kayla she works like so hard like I know she is she's so much Yeah but you know and obviously if she she ever does need help, you know she'll show she'll be on the lookout, you know? But I'm pretty sure she's fine. She just really wants her education, you know Kayla if you're listening uh text me hit me up I was talking to you. Um Okay so yeah so you had a job, production, production production assistant. Like I work in a place where like I used to like you know do shows and stuff like that. That's super cool for me. It was like a whole full circle moment like I got the job and like october or something like that and like one of the owners like she like damned me on instagram because like like her son went to school with me for nine years and like we stayed friends and everything and like it was really cool. Um But her and her family moved to san Diego once her husband got a job and so like you know I really only see like her now like ever um because you know she like owns the theater so like that that happened.

So she was like, hey listen, um I have this job and I was like, I'm listening okay. Um and so then it just kind of like went from there and so then it was like okay tally like you know, we're doing costume fittings today, we have vocal rehearsal, we have like, you know, can you like help, like, you know, go over the choreography for this, you're gonna be backstage, like we're gonna help with like quick changes and like that is like everything I love. Like I love that stuff like just like see other people like do something that makes them so happy and like I get to be a part of that like, oh my god, like how great is that, wow, that's so genuine. That's awesome. Um I kind of wish I had the cameras but I'm not wait until they have to wait a little bit longer just before. But I'm gonna definitely have cameras and will definitely show you know, because I say because I, because I say a lot, I'm like, man, people show their real emotions on here and then, but like, I can't prove it because I've got nothing to film it. Um But uh what's it called? Yeah, from going from acting to kudos to now being behind the scenes and helping now, like what's it called?

Must be amazing. Like honestly, like just just to like be so immersed in something that I love so much like last semester I would be going from like like my acting class to like you know my Stagecraft class and then like immediately after that I would like head to the theater and then I would like work until eight like and like that was like the best for me like I loved it obviously like homework got to be like a real stressful thing for me like you know when isn't a stressful thing like that kind of stuff just like happens like. Yeah now I'm like doing it all over again but this time I get to actually like be on stage and like that is like that's like I always tell people like when they ask me like what's it like to like to be on stage like what's it like to love something that much? And I'm like that is my drug like that is like my like cocaine, heroin, whatever you wanna call it. Like that is like everything to me because it's like there's seriously nothing else like it in the entire world. And I God I hope that translates when I'm like trying to do a movie or something, you know? Oh you're gonna do great. I can already, I can already tell you're gonna do amazing.

Um Was it uh What I asked this question is to be as well and other people um was it difficult bouncing the job and doing the production and then there were none I mean because of Covid, I'm not working right now because the theater and you know, all the theaters are kind of like shut down right now. That's right. So, you know, I do get a little bit of a break right now, but then like um at the end of this month I got to go back in because we're trying to like start things up again, so like then I'll be like focusing on because um we're doing Annie and so like, I know right, so we're great. Um So like, I'll be doing like a couple of shows for that towards the end of february and then like, that's like kind of when I like go back to work kind of, but like, not really because, you know, it's still Covid and everything, it's not going to be the same, but like it is kind of, I guess. Well, I mean you're going back in person Yeah, Yeah, that's better than not working I guess, you know? Um Okay, so so you haven't you have a job but you haven't been really working aside from and then there were none. I mean basically, yeah, like I mean like I think I told you like it was yesterday or something like that, like I like kind of want to get another job, like kind of working morning shift or something.

But then like, I don't know, like I'm trying to take what Cody said into account to like, you know, prioritize my mental health and stuff. I have a whole episode about that because because uh what's it called? I don't think no I don't think I told you I had two jobs and did a production so. Yes and uh what is it? Uh you know I've said it a bunch of times, I'll try to keep it short. Yeah worked from basically I got up at like 3 30 I had to work at four a.m. worked at McDonald's up until either 9:30 Or nine. If I had class, if I didn't have class 4-12 and then I would have my part time Starbucks which would be like 12 30 up until five or 1 to 5 30 right? uh and then when that was done then I go to Syria now from 6-10, Try to pass out like around 11 and then do it all over again, wake up at 3:30 and I did that for like a whole month and don't get me wrong, the paychecks were nice but man, man, I was exhausted. I was really tired um definitely don't, I mean if you can do it, you know, I'm kind of thinking I'm not going to do that right now because like I mean it takes a lot from you, it does take a lot, I'm already like you know, I get a little tired you know now and again.

Exactly. Yeah. No I feel you because like because like now like I'm working right now I'm working at Rancho san Diego okay and I'm working overnight so then I'm like part of the little part of me is like, man, I can get a morning shift though because as soon as I'm off I can go to another shift and they have school later. But then I was like, you know what, I kinda don't want to go back into that rabbit hole again so I'll just stay off that for now, you know? But um but no, um you know, I mean I feel like people get second jobs just for like because they need it, you know, I got it because I wanted it, you know, I don't know if that's the same reason for you. I don't know what kind of financial problems you're going through but hopefully none I mean as of right now and kind of like, you know like kind of, I mean I'm just trying to like buy a plane ticket to go see my cousin for a week. That's all really? Yeah. Where where, where to the east coast. Really? Damn okay. And tickets must cost like, I mean sometimes but like my cousin, she like travels for work like, like internationally.

So she's been to like, like bali Indonesia like Japan Korea like she has been literally everywhere across the map. Um but like, so she knows how to get like the cheap plane tickets so that's what I'm trying to do because maybe maybe I want to get, you know, I know now the actress tally, but do I want to know the actual tally? Okay. Um Let's see. Um First things first. Are you in a relationship at all? Uh No, I'm not. I was last year but I am not and I haven't been for a while. Yeah. How long was the last 1? A year and three months. 3 months if you don't mind me asking what? Well, broke it off. He broke up with me twice in the same year. Yeah, that happened. Um Yeah, that was, that happened. But obviously I am over and done with that and uh you know that happened and like, you know, I'm just me right now and that's that's right. That's right. Sally. That's right. That's right. You know, you don't need anybody to you don't need anybody. You got it.

Um You know, people are nice. Mm hmm. Okay, sure. What's your ring? Is it a motoring? It's a promise ring. Oh my God, promised. For who do you have a girlfriend? I do have a girl. Oh my God. Well now I'm very inquisitive and now I'm going to ask you some questions. How long, how long, how long does this seem? Just? Just looking at me, I'm gonna say two years, wow, you're like dead on january 20th it was two years. Yeah. Hit two years. Congratulations. Thank you. Wonderful. Yeah, we've been going at it since uh I was I was a junior. She was a sophomore. And yeah, we were just at it since then. And I love hearing little relationship stories. I am like I am literally the biggest, hopeless romantic you will ever meet. I get like so gushy about like everything romance. Like I love just little like romantic things like that. Yeah. And going going to that. I also like kind of relate to you on the crafting stuff because I was always thinking thinking outside the box.

I was always thinking of something like better for me. I always want I always if I'm going to make something, I want to stand out in some way, you know, and like one great example that that I did but I couldn't do is um the problem was coming up right? And so the way I was doing it and I have like, I don't even have pictures of it. But basically, usually I would ask people like how many people do you know, how many posters you usually see when someone asked the other person so many. And as a person that has done that before, I was always the person that would ask the guy out. Like I have something that you're like, you're going with me. Like if you like, you know, if you're not going to ask me like, you know, like I'm going to ask you, I don't see a problem with that. Oh my God. Um But like so many posters. So many. Yeah. But yeah but usually what people just take one poster and write whatever cheesy you know they write like you know they make a then my question with like candy or like like prom would be fire with you. Like it's always like when you think back at it I'm like I'm like oh my God, what was I thinking?

You know? But what I did was kind of similar to what I did with the video. It was it was like a it was a poem. It was and I had let me get here. So I had four posters. Okay. And basically uh so yes I had poems, you know and it was just like from the start and like you know like um when I saw you like I didn't know how to feel the da da da da da or something like that. Right around the posters, like not really like included but around it. I had um have you ever seen like those little lights that you put around like pots plants or So? Sure little tiny lights, like little fairy lights or something like that. But yeah basically I had that around the poster with like also like chips and candy like attached around it right then you gotta food. That's the way a woman's heart and then right in the middle is like a little small little poem and so so I had four of those and my big plan was to you know, do the same thing, you know this and that this and that and they all lead up to like, you know, I have one like you know this and that um uh like it all ended like I have one final question to ask you and then when the time is right on the back of each poster it just spelled out, will you go to prom with me?

You know? So I was going to do that. Yeah, because the problem was in March of 2020 so obviously problem never happened. Um I did eventually did show her she was she was really great for it. Um but you know, it was just one of those and I remember one more to um it's right up there as well to where it's it's basically my own pop up box, you know, have you seen one of those where it just pops up and it's just a bunch of pictures and things like that. Yeah, I had um I basically did one of those um printed out some pictures and then as soon as she opened it, you know, there was a bunch of pictures and all the things around, you know, so I did things like that. Um looking back at it, I kind of wish I didn't born at the same time. Yeah and you know, two plus years. Um and yeah, I mean it feels great though. not gonna lie it feels awesome and yeah and it only goes up from here you know that's how it's always here.

Um Okay. Ah Not to okay now we're in the topic of love. Um anybody. Okay have you been ever how do I ask this? So you you said you weren't in a relationship for? How long now? I know how long it's been since I've been in a month. Yeah we're going on seven months now, seven months seven months ago. Yeah. How long did it take you to like fully recover from that other relationships? I mean like okay so let me like map this out so like it was you know last year and I you know like it was summer and everything and then like I thought things were going okay. Um Clearly they weren't. Um But uh you know that happens you know like I don't blame him or anything, I don't have any like ill will or bad feelings of like hate or anything towards him like I don't I feel like like people think they need to be like messi or harsh or bad like they don't sometimes things just don't work out and sometimes that just happens and like you know I don't think that that's like a bad thing, it's just something that happens you know it's just it's just a sign that you didn't you know there's someone there better for you you know.

Yeah and I think that's pretty true and like, you know that happened and then I I got home from my I go camping, I'm a big camper like nature hiker person like that, like I'm very into like nature type stuff. Um And so I got home from his camping trip and like my brother, he had gone on a camping trip to um he was like back to back camping trip because like my whole family is like that um So like the day that he came back, I got this text and I was like oh no, god no it's happening again. And so it did um and then I went fell into like this whole like kind of like I'm not going to call it a depression, but it was like something along those lines because like it was like one of those like type things like, you know, like I'm wearing the same clothes for three days straight, like I literally am not getting up out of bed, I'm like crying every hour type thing, like it was like not good, but then um this is gonna sound really cheesy, but like I like found movies again because I had been so busy with like school and everything that like I hadn't taken the time to like truly like appreciate movies. And so I was watching like six movies a day, like 2.5 hour long movies every single day for weeks on end and that was like that was my coping mechanism and I was like, oh my god, this is so good.

It was like back to back to back. I was like not even processing anything, I was like just appreciating them and like I made this entire list and at the end of like, I don't even know how many months it was, I think it was like two months, maybe two or three months. Like I had watched like 70 movies and I was like, I'm kind of proud of myself honestly, I was like dang, I really did that. Um But yeah, but then I went to colorado because my cousin was getting married and like him and her husband are so sweet, I love them so much. Um but then I like spend some like like actual like alone time with myself and with my family and I reconnected with a bunch of my cousins like that because the pandemic hadn't seen him in like years obviously. Um So I would like wake up really early and like, you know, it's really, it's really like cold in Denver and everything like in the morning. So I like just go on a walk and play some music and I like go get myself like a little coffee and I like appreciate things like I'd wave to the neighbors that were on the street of my Airbnb and everything and I was like, you know what? Yeah, I am doing okay. Actually I'm doing really well. That was the turning point. Yeah. And I was like, you know what?

Maybe I'm gonna be okay and maybe things are going to be all right and you know what? They are okay and I am all right. So that's what matters right. That's right. That's right. That's right. That's right now. I'm just kind of like, you know, Yeah, yeah. Because the reason I bring that up is relationships take a lot of people they do. Yeah. And it was, you know, I did a lot of over thinking on my part like, you know, because I tend to overthink a lot. Um so, uh you know, there was always that like, you know, factor in the back of my mind where I was like, oh my God, what if like, you know what if they don't love me? Like what if I'm not good enough like all this type of stuff. But um then I just kind of like went on this whole thing where I was like, you know what, I don't have to like myself every day because like, I still love myself. Like, you know how like, you don't always have to like your siblings, but you'll always love them. Yeah. Like, you're always like, I just realized like, wow, I really love myself. Like I am like creative and I am like, you know, like I get out there and like, I'm active and I enjoy doing things with myself and like, I can go on like a two hour walk, just me and my thoughts and I will be completely okay.

You know like I love that and I love doing that sort of stuff. Like I love like quality time with myself. Like, I feel like people often talk about love languages in relation to other people, but like, people don't often talk about like self love languages. Like, you know, like, you could always like, you know, spend some quality time with yourself. Like, that's what I like to do. I like to like just go to my room, watch a movie, make some popcorn and I'm like, you know what? Yeah, I'm just going to enjoy my own company here for a little bit or like, you know, like, words of affirmation people say like, I've like, you know, posted on my mirror. That's like, you know, like you look hot today and I'm like, you know what? Yeah, I do like, like thank you posted on my mirror. Like that's nice or like, you know, uh the gifts or whatever. That other one is like, yeah, you know, I'm gonna go by myself like a little muffin today and that's my treat yourself. Yeah, I'm a big believer and treat yourself. Um but my bank account isn't always um so we do that sparingly. Um But yeah, I feel like people need to learn a lot about like what it really means to like love yourself and like be okay with like just being who you are. I feel that I feel that because you didn't you like, you know, you can I'm only talking from experience, like you genuinely love things a lot more once you start loving your own self, you know, you like you start getting comfortable with because like, because even like even to this day I still have people like, you know, like they they hear themselves on the mic and they're like damn, that's how I sound like, like I don't want to be on this no more, but like I'm like that's why I'm like, you know, well, you know everybody, everybody hears you like that and no one has a problem with the everybody sees you, but you don't see yourself, you know, everyone loves it, but you know, it's just you and and once you start appreciating and loving and being comfortable yourself, that's when you start living like the fullest.

That's when you start like having the most fun out of anyone, you know, more fun than anybody has ever had, you know? Um And yeah, like, you know, treating yourself self love like that's that's just as important, you know? And I feel and I still feel like if you don't love yourself then I don't think you can love anybody else. I think that's really true. I think that you really need to discover like like loving who you are before, you can like you know do that with like another person and like you know I think that's pretty important but like you know now I'm in a spot where I'm like you know what you know I'm like single and okay with it like I was never like not okay with that like you know like I've always been okay with like you know who I am most of the time at least you know we all go through periods of like I'm like oh my God, I like hate myself today like you know just really yeah we all have off days like that or like off weeks or off months sometimes. Um But then you know you've got to like pull yourself back up sometimes and you got to like remind yourself like yeah people love you and like you know you gotta tell yourself like I love you like you know like you gotta like look at yourself and be like yeah you know what you have worth as a human being and you need to recognize that you know I'm sorry I just blanked out for a second but but I heard everything you said.

No no no no I believe everything. I believe all that. I I truly truly believe self love is probably the most important love out of all of them. Um because exactly you know you're always dealing with you and it's not and it can be the same thing about not just about love, but about like also like believing in yourself and things like that and feeling confident, you know, like, you know, your your biggest fan, your your biggest supporter, like it's always just gonna be you and the other person that's gonna bring me down is really just gonna be you, you know, so um that I truly believe in um same same in the topic as a, you know, as we're on right now, romance, I guess, you can say um you know, people people, you know, break off and find love in in theater in productions, you know? Um but you know, we still gotta say professional, like, but luckily as you heard on the podcast, yeah, he's doing a lot better, you know, obviously, you know, it took some things out of him, right? And and when I was filming that too, he was like genuinely to his heart, like, you know, like Cody, Cody, Cody always been like the type of bit of happy, he's jumpy, you know?

But then seeing him like that, I was like, wow, I'm sorry, I'm sorry to bring you at this point, but but but but it's good because, you know, you always gotta let that kind of stuff out, you know, like you gotta use something, you have to vent you do you need to because like, you can't just keep stuff inside all the time, like, honestly, like I really struggle with that because it's like if I'm like opening up to you about something, it's like okay like I like really trust you because like I am so bad about like you know like opening up about like deep topics and stuff like that. Which is why I like podcasts so much because everyone talks about their deep topics and they like to talk about that sort of stuff. I like to get into like you know like a bunch of questions and like metaphorical things and like you know literal things and like you know stuff like that. I don't even know what I'm doing right now but like but yeah like you just talk just talk and it's recorded and then you'll listen back to it and you'll be like yeah no that's yeah that's how I think you know and also anybody who's listening to this would get to know you a little bit more if they didn't know you already, you know. Um They get you get to know your personal thoughts and get to get your aspect on how you believe in things and how you feel on things, you know? And uh same can be said about you know anybody else who's on here or same can be said about you know um I'm not even myself, I mean I've been in you know the host so obviously I've been in every episode but um you know people only hear me like an hour a day, an hour a week or two weeks or so, so, you know, I wouldn't say they know me know me, but you get a good idea of who I am, you know, which is, which is great.

Um and yeah, so um and then obviously like any past relationships, has any of that like affected you in theater or production at all? Okay, in the past? Um Well when I was like, like middle school, everyone's got a middle school crush, everyone's got that thing that happens when they're like 12 years old, like, oh my God, I was like, there was this guy in my theater and I was like, oh my God, everything like, oh my God, I'm like totally into him, but I was like, like literally like 12, 13 years old. I was like, tally, you need to calm down. Um but then that happened that passed and everything. Um but I don't know, like, I like the other guys, they're great, that says anything about me. I don't know, I have a question for you. What's your Hogwarts house? What's your Hogwarts house? I just thought about that because I'm a hufflepuff. You're probably mad at me, you're probably gonna leave right now. I have not seen any harry potter movie, No, Oh my God, you know what? That's okay. Not everyone that has to be into everything all the time.

I wish you were obviously never, what does that, what does it even mean? Like what, what house or whatever? What does, what does that mean? Okay, now we're getting into some nerdy stuff. All right, okay, so um There are four hogwarts houses at the Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Alright. And because of the, wait, wait, wait, before you go on, before you go. Um Did you ever learn about the the the iphone trick about harry potter? There's a there's an iphone trick. Okay, hold on, let me see you can find it. But um what was it um What what's what's the words that um what's the words that turn on the wizard? The one who knocks turns it off. Wait, what was the most, most most maximize like bright light? Hold on, hold on. All right, okay. Because I said I saw this and I tried it and I was like, dude, if I showed talent is gonna be crazy, so like luminous. Right, okay. Lou most Oh my God, turns it on and then and then Knox okay, I've turned torture.

Oh my God, that's so cool. I saw that and they immediately thought of you. I'm like so cool, how cool is that? Because because I tried it and I was like, wow, that actually turns it on. I love that. The designers have Apple did that like 11 of them is going to be into harry potter. Right, That's so cool for those wondering. So apparently, yeah, so Loomis and Loomis has turned on. Not just turn it off. If you say that to Siri Lou, most will turn on your flashlight and knocks will turn off your flashlight. And I tried and I was like, oh my God, that's so cool. Now, just imagine when you need a flashlight, just limos and then I'm going to show my entire family that today, that's like that's going to be the only personality trait today. But I just thought that was cool. Sorry, I don't mean to apologize, but now that we're in the topic of harry potter, I felt like I had to show you that. That's really cool. Okay, okay, back to the four houses. Okay, so the four founders of Hogwarts house, there was Salazar, slytherin, Rowena, ravenclaw, Helga hufflepuff and Godric Gryffindor. And so obviously last names work out pretty nicely.

So we're gonna split them all into four houses. So uh, slytherin people often think, oh my God, it's the evil house. No, it's not okay. Like yes, yes, I am. People think that's literally like the bad house, it's not, they have like ambition and like there, you know, they really like go after things and their cunning and they're smart and they're witty and like, yeah, a lot of like bad people come from like, you know from slytherin, but like a lot of bad people also come from like other houses, it's like not restricted to just one house. Um but yeah, they have like the snake as their mascot and then there's a hufflepuff which is my house which is wonderful. Very much a hufflepuff supporter. I love hufflepuffs, hufflepuffs are like some of my favorite people ever um That's not just me being biased, that's just because of how they are. Um And so uh like health clubs are like known for like being like very kind, very sweet and people that though that's the worst thing that you can tell the hufflepuff because it's like you can't just like tell a hufflepuff.

That's that that's that oh my gosh, I'm stuttering that's like all that they are. You know they're like so much more than the next hufflepuffs are like, like they care for everybody. Like it's like it's like they don't discriminate, they are like very much going out into the streets to protest type. People like they're like that type of person. Um But they're also like very like you know strong people like they have the badgers and badgers are known for like being like you know reserved until provoked and hufflepuffs are reserved until provoked and so that's how they are and then a raven claw. They have you know the raven that's in the name, come on now. Um So they are like smart and funny and intelligent and they like have like a lot of like quick thinking skills like like in order to get into the dormitory um in in their tower at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and wizardry. I'm getting really into it now, you have to answer a riddle in order to get in, like every single time you want to like go to your room, you have to answer a new riddle.

Like how difficult is that, I was gonna say, how annoying would that be. I know, I couldn't do that, that's not even hufflepuff, you know, you just like open the door like that's all you do, like, like I can already imagine like spending like the whole day at class and then like doing production, you're walking in your heels and you're tired as hell, you come home and then it's like okay, like feed me, I live water me, I died, and I'm just like, oh no, no, thank you, and that is not for me. Um I was like yeah, griffin Door, the final house, the three main characters of harry, potter, harry Ron, Hermione all in griffin door and griffin door is known for being very like brave and like strong and intelligent and I feel like I've used intelligence for raven quality, but that's okay. Um But Gryffindors are like very like, like they're going to protect you no matter what, like they're like, I don't care who you are, what you're doing, I'm going to help you in this situation and we're gonna get through this together, and that's like that's the four houses, okay, just by just by knowing who I like knowing me for, as long as you have and what what will house do you think I categorize them?

I don't know like I get like kind of slithering vibes but like but like not in a bad way, like my mom's in slithering, like that's not bad. Um But like I could also kind of see Griffin Door but like if you read the series, you know like those of you that read harry potter know that like slither and they go hand in hand. So that kind of makes sense. But like I feel like people can often find the two houses. Like a lot of people assume that I'm in raven claw, like you're in, you're in which one? The Yeah, but like I guess people can see raven claw in me which thank you. I think that's great. You know I mean? Okay. Well I mean I still you know, I'm still trying to find out what they exactly what they mean and all I heard was slipping and is like Known as the bad one but that doesn't that's what I'm saying, Break down the stigmas. Okay you're right you're right you're right. But I'll look into it and see what they actually mean and then I'll probably give you an answer next week who I really am. You know that's how you take the real quiz. Yeah. And you watch did you watch everything? Did you read everything or both?

Both? It's like I don't have like a number one, like nerdy thing that I'm into, but if I were, it would be a toss up between like Star Wars and harry potter, like that's it for me like um I love that so much, like I have like a bunch of like pop figures for harry potter, I was Hermione Granger for four years when I was a kid, like all in a row because I was like oh my god, Hermione has big brown poofy hair, I have big brown poofy hair to um So of course, you know, I managed my hair now and so now I guess I'm older, Hermione Granger, but I don't know about that. Um But yeah, I think it's like, I don't know, I just I love the books, the books was such a big part of my life now. J. K. Rowling, that's a whole another topic that we don't need to get into. But like, you know. Yeah she's like but but I mean uh I mean obviously I knew it was a big thing like it was all over um They finished like the series and everything, like The movie's 12. Yeah. Yeah, so like that's kind of why it's not like as a big thing anymore, but they have a whole universal thing, I know that I'm saying like it's still it's still big, it's just not, you know, I'm pretty sure it was at its prime at like 2010 or so.

I mean yes and no, like I would say like early 2000s for books it was its prime. Um because that's what they were getting released. But like for movies I would say like 2000 like 11 because that's when two definitely holds part one came out and that was like a big thing because it was like you know, twilight, Breaking Dawn part one and two. It was like kind of like that like the blast book is like So big that you need to like split it even though fun fact, deathly Hollows is actually not the largest book. It is actually Harry Potter and the order of the Phoenix which is literally the size of the fridge and it took me forever to read that book. That book is like 800 pages, something like that. Yeah, it takes a long time to read it but I love to read. So you know it's nice to know that I I see that I see you reading whenever. Like I always, I always have a book on me. I feel like uncomfortable when I do not have a book. I literally brought a book in my bag. I am not going to be reading today but like in my bag right now. I have my current book, one of my books. I mean to right now.

Yeah, just because like I don't know, I just always have fun with me just for anything at all. Like if I need to like lend it to somebody, I'm like okay here's this passage. I really like let me just show it to you real fast like if someone's like board like at an airport like you know like I was like yeah let's just like read together and like my grandma and I were at an airport once and I was like I brought an extra book if you like want it like you know like you always gotta like have that for someone, you know? Yeah. Yeah. It's kind it's kind of like it's kind of like having an extra water bottle like people need it like like my books are my water except for like, you know like it's not because like you know you can't you shouldn't eat paper and you shouldn't drink paper. I don't think you can actually yeah you shouldn't literally drink or take it, you know? But but no that's good. Um I haven't really met me personally, haven't really met many people who actually like read read like that, you know? So it's good. It's good that you know, you know, I think it's better than like watching stuff on youtube or you know, I still don't trust me. I do you know? But I think it's a little bit more healthier than the on screen. I mean sometimes like I just feel like sometimes when I really do need like a detox for my phone.

I'm like you know I just got to pick up a new book or something like that. Like I'm like so bad about going into Barnes and noble saying I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna buy anything this time. I'm like, yes, I am come on now. Like I am 100% going to buy something from their new paperback sales. Like I am going to be doing that. It's like two for three. Yes please. Yes, I'm going to be doing that. Thank you very much. And so I always end up with like something I don't need, but then I end up reading and I'm like, yeah, I needed that. You know, it's kind of like, it's like we're going in for just one thing dear. And then it's like no, especially going to target if you put, oh my God, if you put me in a target, I will get lost in a target. Like I am like maybe you locked me inside of a target for like 24 hours since the tally. I just needed to survive in here. I could do it. Like I could probably, I would 100% do. I'd probably like, you know, I steal a lego set or something like that. Like one of the really expensive ones and I would just like build that and I would just like, you know, maybe like leave a trail like of the smaller ones leading up to the bigger one. I'm like, okay now it's like, you know 10 am like you should go watch a movie, maybe go grab some breakfast.

Like I'll just go to the fruit aisle or something like that. They got couches, don't they? They got chairs and furniture. Yeah, I'll just like sleep on that if I need a break or something. You know, like that's what I don't know. I can't imagine like the display lego and just, I would, I mean, well I would take a display lego but like, you know, it's fun to build them to, you know what I mean? Like you know, I would do that. I would totally do that. Yeah. You know, I was that kid that was always just like, why don't we just like build something? Like, like I said very much a creative must make things type kid, which is great. Um, so probably next episode will be tallies adventure at a target. Oh my God. Just the chaos. That would go, Oh my God, I would need to be like locked in there like with somebody though because like, you know, like I love being with myself but not like that much. Like it is a linoleum floors, everything is white and red. I'm gonna need like some somebody for like emotional support, just like, you know, be there and talk to me through my that whatever I'm doing that day and then wait, I forgot, I forgot to mention that.

Have you seen and then no way home. I haven't, I have not seen it. I havent it's a terrible thing, isn't it? Yeah, it's been a, it's almost been too much. I know. Don't hate me too much. Let's try not to thank you. I'll try not to. But I mean like what's it called? It's isn't getting out of theater soon. We'll probably, I need to go watch it sometime. Like I love going to the movies man. I like, I love it so much. I mean just like I've just not had time for it and I haven't had time like at all and people like my family goes to the movies. It's normally because like I have something going on or like they're in town like, you know, and they're just like, hey, we should go see a movie and I'm like at home or like I'm at rehearsal or I'm at work or you know, I'm doing homework or something like that. Yeah, but like, you know, like I love going to movies like I think the last movie I went and saw was like december I think because like I didn't see like any movies in theaters in January and February, like just started like it's like four February 4. Yeah, so we just started so who knows? Maybe I'm going to go see a movie this month. I went to go see No way home with with Frankie with Cody with another friend named Faith and then another friend Gavin something, something like that, but I want to go see it with them.

It was it was a beautiful movie. I heard that it's very emotional. You definitely need to see it. I'm a crier. Like, so if you if like if my brother is telling me that he got emotional watching it, I can guarantee that I'm gonna be a mess easily. We all got emotional me Frankie Cody from all of us man. Like it was it was good. Like the emotions that gives tom he's he's so good. Like, I really want him to like go places in life. You know, like No, I just mean like further along, like he's like 20 for you know, humans India if they don't get married, I will stop believing in all celebrity couples ever. Because like they are going to last if any couple's going to last, it's going to be them together. Yeah. We've been together for a while. I always thought it was just like, like, just just you know, they're they're fully together and they are so sweet. Like I love the height difference to like just the fact that she's like just a little bit talented than him, but like, not a lot. Like, you know that is so sweet and like honestly they are both hot people.

Like they their kids, oh my God, they're kids would be models. Like that would be so good. And like I'm not saying that people are there looks that's not what I'm saying at all. But I'm saying that the fact that they're like both so talented and like as a big euphoria watcher, I'm a big fan. Like I am into some data on that show. Like I love her and that It is so good. I heard Yeah, I heard that. I heard that that show got controversy a little bit. I mean how intense it really was. It's really intense. Like there's a lot of times and I need to like pause it and I'm like okay take a breath And kind of like the only I haven't seen it yet. But I feel like it would be like another version of like 13 reasons why. I mean it's not quite that. But like then again, I've never seen 13 reasons why because people like oh tallies so fragile. She can't watch it. God, I hate when people tell me that too because people always think that I'm like super fragile and I can't handle stuff like no. Yes, I can just because like I bake cookies for you and I give a bunch of hugs to people that doesn't mean that I'm a fragile person or that I'm just going to like you know, fall over at this next like rated R movie that I see like no I can like watch things that are thought provoking and be okay.

Like I wish people wouldn't assume that about me. You're just you're just really sweet people don't see that. I know people, I mean like I thank you for that. Like I think that like there's enough bad things in the world and that people should be kinder to each other definitely. Oh yeah, that's, that's, that's like number one problem and I was hatred. Yeah. I mean like people just need to learn to like respect, respect people, like hear each other out more often and just like get a better understanding of like who people are like, you know, if we just spent less time arguing with each other and more time just like getting to know people and understanding our own thoughts and ideas as well as other people, then I feel like we would like progress so much more as a society. But then like, you know, don't do that. But like if I can be nice to people and I can be kind to people then like at least that's, you know, one less person that there is to like, you know, make something that looks like or so yeah, no, and that kind of goes back to why I have this part of the, it kind of goes back to why I have this podcast because um that was all inside of you. Like, I don't, I don't know if you've ever invented anything like that to anybody else or told anybody.

Like obviously probably told my best friend, my best friend is I tell her everything I've known her since we were like three. So she knows everything about myself. Right. Right. So I'm like, I'm pretty sure, you know, you told people about like, oh Tom Holland and today I need to be together like everything about Star Wars and harry potter and all that. But you know, but like telling people like to be nicer and kinder to each other. You don't really, you know, say that often, but I don't feel that I feel like I should, that I feel like I show it more than I tell it. Like no, you definitely, you definitely, yeah, but again, like I was saying, I'm going back to this podcast, it's just that I wanted to give that platform for people like you like to have a lot to say. Like exactly like I can't, like I can go on for, I can go on for a long time as well, you know? And like, you know, whatever I say, I'm passionate about like acting about movies about, you know, just like self love and all that kind of stuff. Like what we just talked about, like all of that. I just enjoy it and then having a person like in front of me to talk with, you know, I enjoy that the most, you know, Exactly. It's great, isn't it?

So exactly. And then now anybody who's, you know, listen to this, they're going to know you a bit more than they probably already have, you know, like hell yeah, and then anybody who's single heroic anyways, Okay, thank you guys so much so much for listening and tuning in and watching hopefully um onto this uh episode onto this podcast, How was your experience, sadly? How do you like this? I feel so good right now, I feel so happy, I feel so joyful, I feel so like grateful to be here. That is awesome. Um we're gonna be filming more episodes, uh we already have another one planned uh and we're gonna have more people, I'm excited, I'm excited because I can finally, you know, have more people on here. I mean, you know, one on one conversations are great when you have a group of people and interacting special, we're going to get into harry potter today, just wait, trust me. And it's the cool thing about this, it's kind of, it's kind of like the teaser because because we only got so much into like Star Wars and harry potter and euphoria and tell all this kind of stuff, right?

So when I have a full episode dedicated to that, you know, oh, it's going to be a good one and this this episode was made into like for you to express yourself too, Get off your chest to say whatever you like and yeah, um you know, this is this is tallies episode, you guys thank you guys um once again, thank you guys so much for listening and thank you guys for tuning in any any last words, any words of wisdom, anything you want to say, two words of wisdom, um go see and then there were none. First two weekends in March. Um, tickets are, you know like what they are the three I think, I think I think um go out and take a walk today, um go take a long walk today and go drink your water. Um go eat some fruit, go eat a lot of fruit actually you need like, you know, vitamin C and stuff like go eat an orange and uh then go create something like go write a note to yourself and then go paint a picture and then maybe go see theater performance.

Yeah, make you feel good about yourself. You all here to her, Y'all heard it here at first tally. Amazing. She just planned out your whole day so you better, you better start doing that. Otherwise bad things are gonna come to you. But thank you guys so much for watching. Thank you tally for coming on, you got it and I'll catch you guys on the next one to remember and tally out

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